its been one of those weeks where ive pulled out 12 eyelashes..

It's something I do when I get stressed/worried/in deep thought. I play with my eyelashes and pop out they come. My mom always gets so mad at me when I do, but shocker.. I learned the habit from her. Thanks Jeanna.


Anyways about my life:

 Right Now: First off im at work so this is probably kind of illegal but there is literally no one here except for me and Sheri, the other receptionist and i got like 4 hours of sleep last night so im letting myself off the hook. sheesh theres only so much scanning i can do without wanting to vomit.

 Reading: I just finished both The Choice and A Walk to Remember this week. Both excellent classic N Sparks, i know its silly but i just can't get enough.and somehow i never expect the bad stuff that always happens in his books.. it always catches me off guard lol. I also started Something Borrowed to see what they hype is all about.. its pretty good but im not that far into it yet so we'll see.

Song: The Songs for my past couple of days have been 1)dont you wanna stay by Jason Aldean and Kelly Clarkson 2)give into me from country strong 3)kiss the girl duh from little mermaid 4)somewhere beautiful by sean mcconnell. what a wide variety of musical choices.. i know i know. Once i explain my life these will all make sense. cause right now i just sound kind of crazy haha

Scripture: Since this is my first post like this ill just name a few of my favs. Hebrews 12:1-2, Galatians 2:20, Psalm 103, Proverbs 3:5-6. Thats just a few. look at them.. theyre great.

Quote: Instead of telling our young people to plan ahead, we should tell them to plan to be surprised-
Dan in Real Life

My Life: ohhh this could take a while..

mmm pancakes.  

okay so i like this guy. and he's moving in a few weeks, but going on a backpacking trip during the time before his job starts. so our time left is zero. i had to talk to him about what was happening with us last night. hes just not exactly the type to display all his feelings all the time, so i had to bring it up. i mean which is fine im just not too good about stuff like that either. but it turned out well. he said he liked me and wanted to try it.. so yay :) BUT back to him not really dealing with his feelings well.. i think that kind of goes into him not really k nowing how to talk to slash deal with me in a romantic situation. Hes just not the type of guy who does it a lot and i think it just overwhelms him and kind of freaks him out maybe? but he said that he wanted to try it so i guess im just going to have to guide it slash kind of help him a long with it. im just super worried because its kind of like we want it to be something and then hes gone for 2 weeks. then ill maybe get to see him sometime during the summer around his new work schedule.. oh yeah he's an aerospace engineer. what? no big deal. its just scary for me because i really do like him a lot and i get worried about him just deciding im not worth it or him not talking to me becasue he doesnt really know how.

good though: we cuddled a lot last night and hes just so so cute and precious. and we were like sitting with out feet up and leaning into each other with linked arms and holding hands and i kind of fell asleep on his shoulder for just a little bit and woke up and he had is head resting on mine. so so cute. hes just so hard to read and know how to deal with sometimes. like he was all like that last night and i dont hear from him today until i text him at like 7. what in america. okay see i just dont know how to feel about all this. and i fell like when my emotions are up my grammar and punctuation rules go out the window. oops.

SO basically:My life is going pretty good right now.. at least i think so.. we'll see how the boy situation works out haha. ohhh what a crazy mess. this could be a pretty great mess though.. hopefully hopefully so.